Monday, May 07, 2007

Dangling Feeling...

This morning called the agent to ask about my job. Then just now, around 5.45pm, she gave me a call while i was on my way to Compass Point. She told me Tanglin CC currently have a vacant, then ask me whether i want it. "Where the hell is Tanglin CC? Now i'm outside, how am i going to check?" These were my thoughts. It's already near 6pm, I thought her job should be 8-5 kind of job? I waited the whole afternoon for her call then after 5.30pm I thought she should have gone off from work. Ya~ a little surprise she gave me a call that late. More surprising to me is she asked me whether i wanna work at a CC totally out of the choices she gave me the other day. She gave me time to find a way to check and give her a reply a.s.a.p. ...

But after i called home and checked with my parents, i realised it's a little bit too far. It's in the west, near Bukit Timah. However, I didn't even have a chance to accept or reject the offer after that. I called back, her colleague said she's busy and said will inform her to return my call. To my disappointment, she didn't return my call. After i reached home, i checked the map, and i realised i do have a direct bus from my home to Tanglin CC. Sigh~ Trust level decreased from 75% to 49%. Belongs to 'untrustable' category. Man~ Nevermind, i'm the soft-hearted kind... Gave her a just-failed grading is lenient already. She still has one more day to prove her reliability. Haha! A little angry... But probably it wasn't her fault. I like to give people chances, ya see~ Hehe. Angry is that she said my name was already submitted to the board. And if i found another job and in the end, unable to make it for the job, then i'll have to compensate the board. But now then i realise it wasn't really a 'garanteed' job since i have to wait if there's any vacant available. And most probably, unless luckily a person shortlisted for the CC i opted for, gave up his/her place, then i can have a place there. If not, then i'll get some other CCs which i don't know or never even heard of. If that's the case, then i have to check where the CC is, and plan how to get there... When she said she'd submitted my name, she sounded so sure that i'll get the job but now... I myself not only unsure of whether i'm able to get the job, but also unsure of which of the CCs I will be offered. Should i accept if it's far away? Should i start finding other jobs now since i may not get the job already? Or just simply accept whatever CC she offers... since still get to gain, just that not as much...? Why finding a job is so difficult...? It's not that i'm totally useless...?! Just give me a chance... To prove it.

Watched Night at the Museum at around 10pm. (How i watched, is a secret. Ask me if you really wanna know... hehe...) Man~ It was a good show. Really like the idea of making the musuem comes 'alive'~. Haha! Comedic and contains a little bit of emotional element... Really cool.