Recently my family is really undergoing waves of misfortunes... It's not that I'm too sensitive... But it's getting more and more serious. I seriously think our feng shui needs some adjustments~ This bad aura lingering around in my house is spreading almost to all of the members already. I'm not gonna emphasize on what exactly happened here though. Let's hope we can all overcome this string of bad luck safe and sound... -_-'''
Yesterday I kind of did a good deed? Something which I feel proud of myself, as the super-scared-of-rejection kind of me, to offer a help is like you need someone to point a knife at me... Very passive type of person. But, don't know why yesterday I saw an uncle with sight-disability having difficulty after he alighted at the bus stop I'm waiting at. He cautiously used his guiding stick to find the way back home. Sort of being blocked by the seats at the bus stop, so he stood there, seemingly lost on where should he proceed. I don't know what actually came into me... But that little courage that seems so hidden inside me took control. I actually went towards him and offered help to guide him back home. I felt great of course. This kind of good deed really only happens once in a very blue moon for me... I'm those kind of person who always think, "Just wait, I'm sure other people will help...?". I hate that kind of myself. Help shouldn't be so difficult isn't it? It's no big deal but why do I need so much courage to help others most of the time...? I don't understand... But I will keep changing to be better... I hope.
Actually there's this dream which I've been thinking of since young. I've also given the thought up a decade-long ago. But recently because of working in SIM, I saw 'it' again... And that thought came back... It's like finding a part of me back... I suddenly have this urge to go for it... But there's still many obstacles for me... I'll have to remove them first. When will I achieve it then? Sigh~~
