Finally, today is my last paper~! Freed once again... This time round I'm not expecting better results than last semester. It's disappointing but I think my motivation is at its max already. I need to extend its limit sooner or else I may be called to my mentor's office and got myself an academic warning.
Slight headaches now and then... Could it be due to my long hours in front of my computer? Or long hours of staring at TV? I have this feeling I'm gonna be blind sooner or later... Hairs dropping like mad ever since I dyed my hair. No matter how I style my hair, I got this feeling of baldness... Argh~ Hair is the part of the body which I usually tends to notice when meeting people. I often use hair to judge a person. Ok la, not really judge but, I just like to see nice hairstyle. No need to be fanciful but as long as it match a person, it will be a nice hairstyle. ^^
Installed Adobe Flash CS3 the day before. Still learning how to use though. Feel like making a flash clock for my blog. But not quite sure how to do it. I need pictures to make my clock as well...
Just now went K-box with my friends right after our exam~ Wow~ It has been how long ago since I last go KTV? Wow~ Haha~ But ok lo~ Can see really damn long never go and standard drop like mad... Haha. Didn't sang much also, but the first few songs already damn high liao, so kind of reached limit just after a few songs haha~ Chwee. >.<'
I need a job! Still no reply from the agent I've sent my resume to... Think I have to send to more recruiters. I don't wanna slack for a month or so, then finally when my vacation gonna end then got job... No good. Please let me find a job~
Suddenly got this idea of 'Real'ness. Have you been your real self? Is that your real self? Are you drifting away from the real you? Frankly speaking... I'm not sure myself. Comparing the past me to the present me, I have changed quite alot. Especially my perspective of viewing things, my temper has changed quite dramatically. I can't seem to be easily angered like I used to. Can say I've lost quite a lot of my temper. Is it because somewhat I've actually matured to learn to stand in people's shoes, to understand why they reacted that way? Or is it because there's something which I feel I've no authority to be angry about. I don't know... I'm not sure. All I want is to be happy and have fun... I know 'this' and 'now' are not what I wanted. Keep searching I will, keep changing I must... How to make this in the fastest possible way? I don't think I will be able to see that in just a few years. But I'll try... Speaking of being real, being real to people around you. I can say, I am, I do. I'm always being real to people whom I'm trusted. Just that maybe sometimes, I didn't say things clearly, and may confuse or create some misconceptions to many people... But it was certainly not intended. 尔虞我诈的世界实在是很累。我想以我最真实的自己面对世人。But, which is the real me? I'm confused myself? Is the present me really who I am? So old already, yet still searching over my own identity... I just never grew up ain't I?
Haha, ok just a little thought of my mind. Still not as complete as what I intended to say... But just couldn't seem to speak out the idea. Haha. Who cares, Haha.
Guess what? It's vacation time! Still have things left in my hall to bring them back. Should be able to clear them with just one more trip. Play, work, buy things, play! Yoshi~~
