Hehe... decided to publish 2 posts at a go as i have a lot of things in my mind that i really like to release... Lonely... I'm So Lonely~ haha.. yeah that's how i feel now. I am a person with a lot of restrictions on myself... no gamble, no drinking, no playing pool,... now? I broke all promise to myself... Bet on Toto on Lantern Festival, Bet with money while playing mahjong and drink beer at a chalet, playing pools nowadays... Why? Because i think i'm beginning to feel lonely... I felt that i'm losing a lot of my friends... How come? Because i don't share their interest. Because i don't do what they like and usually do... So i have drifted further away from my friends... I think it's time to loosen up and mingles with other people... Breaking lots of promises to myself, is it good or bad...? Where's the Kun Guan that always stood firmly on his ground and said," I DON"T GAMBLE!"...? Anyway, broken is broken... no big deal haha... i'm just a ordinary person... why go so hard on myself? hehe... Sometimes people think that gamble and drinking alcohol shows that you're an adult... I think otherwise... Gamble have only lose-lose ending in the long run and alcohol can damage your liver and bones... Though I prefer coffee... hehe
Sometimes, on the street, seeing a lot of couples walking intimately together, showing off their Public Display of Affection, how i long i can have one loved one with me too... But everytime i think of my pathetic amount in bank, goalless future..., oh yeah, and spontaneous character, i really dare not go for a relationship... Spontaneous chaacter...? Yes, on one hand i'm always looking cool or 'cold' maybe, can't change... but on the other hand i am actually quite easy-goin, humourous, and friendly person... Sometimes i'm the former self but sometimes the latter... Haha... finding my path for the future, searching for the real me... Girl who like me surely gonna suffer... I think i better shave botak and be a monk better... no worries... haha
朋友们, 你们都要幸福哦~~
