Week 4! No time to slack!

I always think that only enjoyable time flies faster. But this stressful and boring studying routine also seems to speed up already. It's coming to Week 4!! OMG~ O.o Ask about what I've learnt, I simply just go through the lessons, never really go further revise my subjects... Some of them I'm still unsure of what's going on... Terrible. What makes it worst is that this semester's recorded videos' quality is horrible. They use this semi-auto recording camera, anyhow zooms when it detects some loud sounds from a direction. And the volume is simply unhearable! Too soft~! OMG. Cui.

Just a sudden quiz on a certain day made me realised, that subject is not gonna be easy at all. My other 2 subjects also getting into the tedious calculation modules... Plus FYP needs to do presentation every Friday, read articles and summarize them... Argh~ So many things to do, but like so little time... *Shake head*

Soccer Update:
This week's performance was still not up to standard. On some occasion just kept misjudging the ball... What's wrong with me man~ Saturday swimming proved to be too exhausting for me or what... Sian. My energy is not supposed to be only that much! Today only 9 turned up in the end, plus 1 had a terrible ankle injury the night before. Thus, we didn't really played seriously. Oh well, at least another match fitness gained. I realised I can't play as a lone striker, finishing just simply sux. Think I'll focus more on passing and assisting from here on. Will finish only when there's clear chance.

Goal(s) Scored: 3. (*Weekly Target achieved*)
Well, as we didn't played really seriously, the goals weren't that impressive anyway.

安心感を欠いて...

I'm a Jack, never a Master.

Jack of all trades, Master of none. Yup, that describes me pretty well. Not 'all' though, just 'many'. I like to try new stuffs, yet never try to even master any of them. I always get a feel of how it's like then I thought I knew it all but often I'm wrong. Is it that I never try to master, or I always just can't manage to master...? With an optimistic belief that nothing is unachievable, sometimes reality just gives me a hard knock and tells me, it's not true. Well I guess, if one has a limit to his energy, then that's how much of energy for him to distribute for his interests. If you try to distribute all energy evenly to all, then in the end, you'll realise just how little the energy level you have for each of your interest. You can never be a master that way... This is reality. That's how important priority is. Sometimes I wonder if I have any strong interest in my life...

It's getting tiring... I've been waking up early everyday and yet I'm not sleeping early at night. Need more rest. So fast, it's turning Week 3 already. Tutorials and Laboratories will fully commence and 24 hours will seem to be really short for me. Not much time to enjoy anymore... To improve my pathetic grades, I have to be consistent in my studies. Keeping up with tutorials and going extra to clear doubts when needed.
I can improve if I try...

Soccer Update:
Although today is a good weather, I had a bad, bad, and disgusting game. Very off-formed, no goal, and instead of blood, I got mud... Argh~ A dry weather yet I could get mud!! What's really disappointing was my performance. With a FICO on Friday and swimming on yesterday, I thought I could be fighting fit for the usual Sunday game. Much to my disappointment, it was not the case. Blew hell lotsa chances, no chemistry with the team, my mind was blank and my eyes were blind... My touches were terrible too! I had gone with vengence for the disappointing display for Friday's FICO and last night's Man United's injury-time slip-up. But instead of an 'on-fire' display, I had a hot and block-headed performance... Time and time again, I was pissed off easily. Of course, I hid it emotionally pretty well. I even got an own goal to my scoresheet~ How unlucky was that?! *Yucks!* Worst still, I got my boots in mud when I went to pick the ball which I kicked too far out. This marks one of my lousiest, disgusting performance ever... I suck. With this kind of performance, how to ever challenge in a competition?! It's one of my dream, and I know I'm still far from it. Gotta work harder. Walk with a ball at home from point to point! Terrible effort, I won't forget this humiliating day.

Goal(s) Scored: 0 *Very Disappointing*

その感じはまだそこにある。